Works on Paper
I approach my drawings in contrast to my other work by focusing on the deliberate elimination of information. The reference image is deconstructed strategically, forcing myself to control anxiety and the desire to stuff the compositions with visual chaos. The obliteration of information references memory and the human incapability to remember past realities. The drawings are the first works to breathe, but lack the color in my paintings to have life. These cold, monochromatic, pieces have an x-ray like quality that challenge the viewer to problem solve the missing information.
Growing up in a foster home as a child has given me a unique understanding of my sense of self. I struggled as a child to comprehend my surroundings because of the mental chaos of our household. All three of my siblings have disabilities or illnesses, including schizophrenia. As a child, I was constantly confronting my personal surroundings in attempt to find normalcy in all the chaos surrounding my family. Trips home as an adult allow me to rediscover bits and pieces of my childhood memories. The discarded toys and objects that were once familiar to me now resemble a sense of rebirth in the place that held so much destruction. While the confusion I had as a childhood has been resolved, the leftover anxiety of the ordeal subtly drives my sense of being, ultimately appearing in my work.